Gone without a trace

gone without a trace.

that was you that earth shattering night

that heart stopping defining moment

when my world, my head, my soul, my heart

were ripped out.

mixed up.

spat upon.

gone without a trace 

you were

but with you went the very marrow of my bones.

my being.

the door slammed and i saw all life

and passion and anything visceral 

sweep out underneath it.

for one week exactly you were

gone without a trace.

so out i went.

coffee i drank.

poems i wrote.

danced i did.

pot i smoked.

kisses i accepted.

people i met.

friends i consulted.

a flat tire i changed.

slept i didn't.

ate i couldn't.

all during the longest shortest

week of my existence.

all while you were

gone without a trace.

you can fill your life 

you can fill your body 

you can fill your mind

but you can't feel a goddamn thing

other than the absence ~

of you ~

gone.

without a trace.

2003